LOVE STORY...

We were both young when I first saw you (WE were not young, it was juz me..hehe)
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns (crap, i wasnt wearing a gown..)
I see you make your way through the crowd (in holiday villa subang??)
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet (of course he did..huhu)
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run (yes, let's run sumwhere..please....)
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you (well, i sneak out almost everyday for you darling)
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew (of coz we keep quiet. how else do u think we survive the r'ship for 5 f***king years??)
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me (exactly!! why cant people understand us???)
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real (it is difficult, kan darling?? huhu)
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes (juz keep holding on..)
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting (frankly, sumtimes..)
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading (sumtimes u are taking too much time..not sure how long i can ever wait..)
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring (this part, of coz it HASNT HAPPENED..yet i gez?)

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you (seriously, WE were NOT young..it's juz me..ahaks)

P/S: isnt it funny how some love songs can really suit our life, esp our love life?? DAMN.

WHEN YOU ARE 20

What happen when i was 20??

When i was 20, i was stunningly wild, weirdly attractive, careless and stupid.

When i was 20, i was studying in my first year of B.Ed TESL twinning programme.

When i was 20, i got the news that i will continue study in College of St Mark & St John (Now known as University College Plymouth St mark & St John), which was my first choice of place to study.

When i was 20, i wrote a sweet malay poem (yang agak jiwang karat) for my boyfriend and it came out in REMAJA magazine.

When i was 20, i spent 2 nights at my boyfriend's mum's house and it turned out she liked me dearly.

When i was 20, i broke up with him.

When i was 20, i spent most of the first half year chasing guys whom i knew i might not get them anyway.

When i was 20, i dated the most romantic guy who happened to be my friend's ex. (i swear i didnt seduce him or anything, it was just my weird charming way that got into him).
When i was 20, i had so much fun with this guy and it was the best 2 months i have ever spent with a man at this point.

When i was 20, i hoped for this particular guy to celebrate my birthday together with him, but instead, he left me at the food court ALONE.

When i was 20, for the very first time, i got dumped.

When i was 20, i got tired of all of these.

When i was 20, i decided to forget about guys and enjoy my single life to the max

When i was 20, i decided to have fun at lounge Holiday Villa Subang to get rid of all the messy stuff in my mind.

Suddenly, when i was 20,
THE NIGHT I BECAME 20,
THE NIGHT I DECIDED TO LIVE A WONDERFUL SINGLE LIFE,

THERE HE APPEARED...

Gosh, out of many many nights.. it's that night..

how irony??

so, when i was 20, i let myself to fall in love the hundredths times, assuming that it wont last long (like before).

When i was 20, i realized, it's more than wut i think.

When i was 20, i knew it.

I KNEW I FELL IN LOVE

AGAIN..

thank God. however hard life had been,
however stucked i had got myself into,
however difficult to deal with the surroundings,



it's last until today.

REUNION

IT WASN’T A PLANNED THING..

Fine! It was planned. By right, it was ME who planned everything (which has always been my job to plan things, and as most people know, I luv to plan things ahead..sumtimes waaayyyy too ahead..)

At first, we came across the idea just because we missed everyone so much. We felt like everyone had been drifted away with work and others. Initially, it was just a simple plan..jumpe for makan and that’s it.

And at first, I was the one who didn’t want to get involve in this get-together thing for some stupid reasons. I had so many things in mind, so many problems that I didn’t think i wanted people to know, I had relationship and bf problems which I didn’t want my married friends to interfere because I didn’t think they would understand.

But frankly, how stupid I was to think the way I had thought. I had known these girls as long as I could remember and during those periods of time, they had been the best buddies in the whole world. How could I thought that they would not understand when in actual fact, they were the ONLY people who could understand everything about me and my problems???

And I thanked God I changed my mind and met up with the girls. It was brief, but long enough to do all the catching up, laughing and eating, having a whole lot of fun. We did those things as though we were doing it together now. It was nothing strange and weird. Though two of us were married, but nothing had completely changed, and I love everything about that.

Only God knew how excited I was. I had been talking about it for days, I knew my house was small, but I wasn’t worry because the girls were not the fussy type. Not that I didn’t care about their places to sleep and all. I had gotten ready everything, and I knew just how to please them.

Huda was the first one to arrive (and Eqin too, but she went back to her mother-in-law’s house). We had dinner @ Nando’s and did a little shopping at Vincci and Jusco. She met my new housemate, Zila and they blended well. So, I had nothing to worry about because by that, I knew my new housemate would also be able to mix up with my other girls.

Our beauty sleep was knocked down by an early morning text from Eqin. I knew how eager she wanted to hang out with us, but early in the morning?? Gosh, she must be sick, but I did try my very best to pick her up at the earliest time I could. As the result, Eqin said that we both looked like we suffered from hang over last night and still were.

Then, we picked up our beautiful Sudiana. Her handphone was out of battery so we had to wait for her for a long time at the Putra LRT Setiawangsa. When she arrived, the noise level rose up and the laughter was more often. When the four of us together, it was like the old time again…(and the memories came back again….huhuhu)

We went home to wash up a little and to wait for my housemate, Zila to came back from her ponteng kerja.. (hahaha) I picked Ila up from her workplace and hoping that the girls would be ready by the time I got back (of course they wouldn’t).

I gave a little more time for them and we went ahead to Pavilion. We parked the beloved Persona at Lot 10 (due to the expensive parking rate at Pavi). But suddenly Huda was not feeling well. She insisted to stay at the surau while we were doing our shopping. Our concern heart said we wouldn’t want to leave her there alone. We did our little shopping around Lot 10 and peaked on her every chance we had. I guess, that was the good thing about true friends. Huda must be so touched by our concerns.

Finally, when she had gotten better, we crossed the road and rain to Pavilion. We loved our shoes dearly that we put them off and walked through rain in bare foot. What a funny scene.



We did a little shopping and window-shopping at Parkson, Christian Dior, Bobbi Brown, MAC, Charles and Keith, Nose, and many more. Finally, the good part came, which was to chose a place to dine in. guess what, choosing a place to dine with these girls could be so difficult and took the longest time. As I once said, “choosing a place to eat with u girls, is like choosing a man to marry in this 21st century. It could take years……..”

We finally agreed to eat at TGI Friday. They gave us a warm welcome and gave us the greatest table service; as though we paid extra for that (I knew it was because of the hot babes). Our beautiful Yuni chipped in at this point with her new boyfriend, Hakeem. We had fun eating and chit-chatting. The old sweet time came back again. Nothing seemed to had changed. Huda still liked to share her food with others (no wonder she’s so skinny), Eqin still picked up the best menu, Sudi still the one to finish up the food (and her alasan was that she tak sanggup tgk makanan tu nangis.. huhu lame…)

Finally, when we wanted to ask for the bill, Eqin made a little toast. “This dinner is for Julie, because we wanted to celebrate her joy for continuing her Masters..” I was touched, and I hugged everyone (except for Hakeem lah of coz, kan..). They even made me a little poem that almost got the tears in my eyes. Weren’t they the best girls in my life???



Finally, we headed to the Greenbox Sungei Wang, which once placed the birthday celebration for our beloved Huda and that someone. Frankly, it was the fun I had never had for such a long time. We sang like nobody’s business.

Finally, our bed awaited. No one stayed up that night due to our tiredness. Next morning, after the Subuh prayer, everyone continued to sleep under I woke them up again to grab our breakfast. Then, I dropped everyone at their destinations (KL Sentral and Putra LRT). It was just me and Sudi heading home to Johor.

We were too busy catching up and talking while we missed the R & R at Ayer Keroh. And as I dropped her off to her hubby, my car suddenly felt so quiet and I was alone again.

As I said, it was brief, but long enough to give me such good memories. Hopefully this reunion will take place anytime soon. I miss u girls badly now.

NUMBER '5'

Why number ‘5’ can be so weird??

Firstly, it’s because it’s a middle number between 1 to 10. if you round it off, 5 is nearer to 10 (that’s the Mathematical rule). But seriously, dont you count more numbers to go from 5 to 10 than 5 to 1?? Durgh! I really wanna draw the number line here but it’ws not like it’s going to change the whole Mathematical thingy, rite??

Secondly, look at the coins..i mean, the malaysian coin. Why is 5 cent smaller than 1 cent and 50 cent is bigger than RM1 coin?? I know we are no longer using the 1 cent and RM1 coins, but didnt this get to your mind?? Gosh, isnt that weird??

When I asked my students to memorize the multiplication table, my year 2 kids can remember table 5 before they can memorize table 3 and 4. isn’t that weird? Maybe because it’s much simpler, but still, 5 is bigger than 4 and 3, shouldn’t it be more difficult??

20s is a very striking moment. Everyone at their 20s is enjoying themselves. But when you reach 25, things can get ugly. U are in the middle. I mean, you wouldn’t even care that you are 24 and keep on enjoying your teenage life, but suddenly when you are 25 in the new year, u are stucked in the middle of adulthood. Pressures come like rains, and the next thing you know, you are having a middle age crisis, HUH!!

But please, it’s the millennium years. Why does age such an important issue?? You can do wutever you want at whatever age you are.

Right??

MY BESTFRIEND'S WEDDING

25th October has always been so familiar to me. The date sounds so perfect. It could be someone’s memorable day. It could be someone’s anniversary, or birthday, or anything. But it certainly a very special day to my beloved Nurul Yaqin and her soul mate, Mohd Redzuan.

My friendship with Eqin did not start since recently. And by ‘recently’ I meant just a few years back. We weren’t friends since high school or primary school or kindergarten. But it’s better late than never, right? So I thanked God that I met the best girl that I share most of everything with at the very end of my teenage life.

In 2002, we talked a few times when we bumped into each other in the elevator. That was it. In 2004, we live in the same apartment but had never really had a decent conversation. She cut my hair once, but it made my face looked 100 times bigger. When I visited Kuantan for the first time with my newly-met boyfriend, I called her for some directions. Seriously, that was it.

Everything started in the middle of 2006 in Uk, few months before we got back to our home land. We became close. I couldn’t really tell when exactly it started but I’m glad it happened. I don’t think we realize how much we have in common.

There are a lot of things we share in common. We love shopping. We can shop till we drop. The good thing is, we have the same habit in shopping. We both go for cheap stuff that looks 100 times more expensive that their real price. And most of the time, we got lucky to get some good stuff in return to very reasonable price. But sometimes, as any other girls, we also adore some real expensive things, like Lancome, Dior, and so on (at least we think that those are expensive brands). So, of course we’ll buy those too, but unlike some people, we have good control on overspending. We remind each other if we tend to go over the limit.

We both have patience towards each other. Before we go out to shop, we’ll both list own the things we want to buy. We’ll both remind each other if suddenly we want to buy things that are not in the list. But, as long as the list is not all ticked, we’ll both go around the mall until our legs hurt. That’s why we can stick to each other that long.

We love to cook. I mean, not really, but we cook when people eat our cooking. We always help each other to cook, though most of the time, it’s her who finishes the rest of the kitchen chores. During our time Uk, we helped each other in the kitchen, of course with some help from cutie Huda and beautiful Sudi.

Those days, we made a good team in term of studying. We had the same study habits, or should I say, almost.. We liked to finish out our assignments earlier from the date line. We were not the last-minute kind. We went to library and had certain goals for the day. Normally, we’d achieve the goal, but if we didn’t, one of us would start babbling.

The day she mentioned about her serious relationship with her soulmate, I wasn’t shock. None of us were. Because we know they liked each other since the day they met. We kind of expected that to happen. What made me shock was when she decided to bring him to meet her parents. Gosh, it was the biggest step!! For me, bringing your partner to your meet your parents means something like maarrriiiaaageee (which I wasn’t ready for that time)..And I seriously wouldn’t think that none of us, at that age, would even think about marriage yet. But I guess I’m glad she has found her real soulmate at that particular time, and it would be such a shame if she let him go.

The day she got married, I was so happy but I was so sad too. My greatest fear was that I would lose her as a best friend, because I had lost one before. I would do anything if I can turn back time to the time when we were so bloodily close. How fast the time flies, it has taken away my sweetest memory.

My Eqin, you are a wife now, and I’m very sure you’ll make a perfect one. I know Wan is so damn lucky to have you, and I know you will make him happy. He is your main responsibility, he is your life, he is your everything, so you better live a good life, ok. If you are reading this, I hope you wouldn’t change. I still need you as much as before, I will steal you from your husband if I need to (Fine! With his permission of course!!) I hope u know that above all, I love you so much, girl. Congratulations on your perfect marriage.

OFF ONE GOES

She was crazy. I must say she was.

Who would decide something so bizarre at that slightest second??
It was her, my sudiana.. my one and only sudiana

Gosh, I left her in Johor for few months and the next phone call she said she’s engaged!! how crazy is that??

Fayzan, if you are reading this, I apologize in advance, ok.. I’m just trying to express myself. After all, this is my blog, kan… so I can anything about anything.

When we were busy picking up boys and trying to have good relationship, she stayed in the room, downloading songs, sleeping and reading. Once a while she would go out with the girlfriends (including me sometimes, if I wasn’t dating) to catch the latest movie and grab dinner at some cool places. There were some guys chasing after her, but she complained too much and the chasing part eventually over. There were times when she yelled at some guys over the phone. Her lists of guy friends, gosh, even my credit card list was not that long. But she couldn’t find anything just perfect.

I wasn’t sure, WE weren’t sure if she was taking her time off about dating guys, or chasing after guys. Maybe she was just too sick of guys who eventually will break women’s heart. Or maybe she was still living under the shadows of her previous memories. Or maybe she was just being too picky and she wasn’t about to see anyone perfect. Or, she could be just lazy, and wanted to live a single life as much as she could.

But then, the first month she got posted, she kept talking about a guy she annoyed with at school. From the way she talked, I could tell that she actually like this man.

Then, the next few months, she said they are getting serious.

Next, they got engaged at the same day the guy’s parents wanna check her out (merisik).

Then, the big was in July, that few months after they met!

Wasn’t that the craziest decision I’ve ever heard??

Fine, it may not be the craziest, but still, I was so shocked!!

SHE WAS THE ONE TO GIVE US A LITTLE TREAT AT KL TOWER!!! (I MEAN, SHE WAS THE FIRST TO GET MARRIED!!!)

While others were still dating the guys they might have known forever, she married a guy she met few months before her big day!!

Suddenly, off one goes.

I made it to her big day, though a little late. I was too shocked that I couldn’t express anything to her that time. I just hoped she made a wise decision.

Then I guess, she made a good decision after all. This fayzan guy, turns out to be someone she adores so much. They share the same personalities, which I think the main reason why they could blend in so quickly. I guess, when u meet some that you’re destined to be together for the rest of your life, it will happen right at the blink of your eyes.

Her story, definitely gives me a new vision about love.

Doesn’t need to be dating for 5 years to get to know each other. If he’s yours, it will just happen.

CONGRATULATIONS, my SUDIANA.

seriously, this is not a first timer.
i am definitely not a first time blogger..
it's just that...
it's the first time after a very long time..

entering a new world, with new responsibilities and definitely new way of life actually does not change my interest, my old time hobby; writing. life have been so hectic, but i 'write' things in my mind, hoping that one day when all of the free times come back to me, i will be able to write again.

seriously, at this moment is not the 'free time' that i was talking about but i just can't take it anymore..
there some things that i have to let it go out of my heart earlier than the others.

it's nice to know if i do hv some royal readers who may be reading just to fill up the time, or to get busy body so that they will hv new gossips, or to take care of my life and to care me more. it is all does not bother me.. just to note again, i'm writing to take things out of my chest.

so, this is a good start. sure will update more.

enjoy!