MAN U VS BARCA

A HAH!!

told ya.. it's like a curse, u know. there was never at any time during Champions League that a team will win for two straight years.

same goes to MAN U. tho they got into final last year and won the league, luck was not on their side this year. so, MAN U fans out there, lets share your grief together, eh.

i had a conversation with some male teachers in school. they were talking about football and they were quite surprise to see me chirping in once a while and i seemed to know a lot about football. then, they asked me if i am a fan of football. then i said, "Hey, jgn pandang perempuan tak de mata, ok. I love football, never missed F1 especially when they are in Sepang International circuit, i adore tennis players especially the handsome Rafael Nadal and Roger Federer, i watch Nicole David at CIMB tournament at BTS. hah, ape lagi yang you all buat?? sume saye buat."

Ternganga gak lah diorg when i said so. well, not to say i watched everything and never missed even one game. ikut mood jugak lah. but when it comes to big2 game like last night, of course i wont missed. this is the time i want to tie a bet with PAKCIK and normally i will win. hahaha.

the interest towards sports grew after i met PAKCIK, frankly. before that, i only play certain games je. but then, realizing that PAKCIK loves football and other sports, then i slowly try to understand him. after all, that's what relationships are about, understanding each other's needs and interests. but then, tgk2, i'm the one yang tergila2 when it comes to football. i can also be so crazy watching F1 and MOTO GP, really love it when they bump into an accident or sumthing. hahah, jahat tak.

So, smlm, i purposely let myself sleep during the day, for around 2 hours. then at night, my eyes stayed awake. we went for a drink and found a spot to watch the game. syok giler. i really love the atmosphere. happening giler. mcm tgk kat stadium jugak.

i'm not in anybody's side. i adore MAN U's credibility, i love Chelsea for having so many handsome guys, i envy MESSI (BARCA) for luck to earn so much money at that very young age, truth is, i'm not really a big fan of any club, but i am a fan of football OVERALL.

so, ladies out there, wutever guys are doing, we can do that too. i can love football, play football and watch football, same as PAKCIK, but he can never DANCE, tho it is my high-raking interest. that's the difference between man and woman. most of the time, we can do things yang guys buat, but they cant do most of the things that we do. example: we can give birth, they can't. they can pee while they are standing. we can too, but it will be a messy pee lah..ahaks..

i have to get back to teasing the MAN U fans in my school who are now putting up the sad faces due to the big lost last night. ahaks.

S.C.A.N.D.A.L (18SX ONLY)

wut is life without any shocking news and challenging stuff, rite??

scandal visited my life since childhood. but of course it was just a small little2 kiddy thing. i was in all-girls school, so the only time meeting boys is kat sekolah agama. gosh, ramai giler budak2 lelaki yg aku minat. one of them, anak ustazah. zaki. very cute. tapi one year younger. ahaks. but of coz tak work out. he didnt even noticed me as a girl. he just noticed me as a competition in exams.

i also had a fling with my cousin, faizal. siap main bercinta2 lagi. wah, zaman tu, sume org tau how close we were. when his family moved out, i was so sad menangis siang malam. ahaks. in form one, i kenal this one guy, aidiyusman. name siap mcm bst gile. quite good looking lah jugak time tu. tak pernah jumpe pun..just tulis surat je. but in letters, jiwang karat habis. gile tak gile bercinte through letters.

when i was in form 4, minat this one guy, mohd shah mohd yasin, budak teknik PD. jumpe pun mase camping KPA (kadet pertahanan awam). very good looking guy. but, siapelah aku time tu. very nerd, tak lawa pun. so, no one ahs ever lay their eyes on me.

i met another aidi. this time, budak hiphop mane entah. but he was not ready to make commitment. kelakarnyer, there was one time he didnt return myc all at all. then, i went to his school and tried to find him. siap tipu cikgu sekolah dia kate i was a cousin from sabah. when he came down and saw me, terkejut beruk dia. hah, jgn main2 i can be very rough sometimes. dah lah mase tu hujn, budget citer hindustan lah konon. but mamat tu tercegat je akt situ, no response. of course lah, jantan...

then, i met a guy, sape ntah naem dia dah lupe..oh yes, ahmad ayzan.. org JB..sanggup dtg KL nk jumpe aku. tu arr first time pegang tangan ngan lelaki. ahaks. scandal tuu..tp mcm tak sesuai jer.. beza umur agak byk, dalam 8 tahun. pastu, rupenye dia dah tunang. hah, amek ko!! i was thinking mase tu, he was a guy yg tgh menyesal dgn pertunangan dia and tgh nk cari his last fling. biaselah tu, kan..

after SPM, couple ngan fazli, member childhood. ni kire skandal gak nih, co my mum tak suke. mcm mmg betol pun. now if i see him around, nmpk dia mcm perogol bersiri jerk.. huhuhu..then, couple lak ngan azmim. mak suke, psl dia anak member mak. we all pun mcm sweet gielr jek. baloik from kl to batu pahat same2. kire mcm sweet habis ler. my friends kat UTM pun suker jerk tgk kitorg. but then,when i entered ipba, he broke up with me. mcm bangang pun ade gak.

kat IPBA lah my life started full of scandals. from the very first week. that bloody stupid sex-maniac redza asyraf.. gosh, i still remember his name. seriously, if tgk muke dia now, mcm perogol seyh. sorrylah for those yg kena dia.. mintak maaf byk2.. hah, ade scandal ngan lecturer gak..uish, ni kalau org tau, habis nih.. lecturer tu kire boleh dikatakan nak amik kesempatan lah gak.. but tak kesempatan..ahaks

tak habis lagi ngan tu.. scandal dgn abg kdpm laks. sape ntah name dia.. the one yg ade motor besar tu, yg selalu berlagak tu.. argh, i pun cant remember his name. ahaks.then with pojie. it was just a fling la, but i guess i hv hurt many hearts mase tu.. then lastly, dgn paad. nih cume member biase je, but sbb rapat sgt, org pun gossip ler kitorg.. but he was a good friend la, such a shame to lose him as a best friend. up till now pun sumtimes i miss him as a fren. tp sume dah bw diri masing2, kan...

at the same time, i had a bf..shah. hah, scandal tak scandal.. ade bf but ade scandal.. pernah gak kuar ngan member budak UTM, raja and hendra. sume tu ade scandal gak tu.. uish, besor citer.. kire mcm kite tgh ade problem ngan bf kite, pastu dtg lah member nk tolong, then tgk2 kite pulak fall kat member tu... hah, mcm tu lah citernyerrr...

tp dlm byk2 nih, dgn shah lah yg agak medalam skit. takt au lah nape.. maybe sbb ngan dia lame skit kot.. lame tak lame sgt lah, 9 bulan kot.. setahun pun tak sampai.. tp sb dia dah bw jumpe mak dia, tido rumah mak dia lagi, kan..so, kire mcm sayang ha bis lah kan mase tu.. ramai je scandal mase tu, tp sudahnyer, aku tolak sume coz sayang sgt kat dia..

but the 'sayang' eventually faded away one time.. dalam dah berjanji mcm2 tu, the love still gone within the thin air. tibe2 je i mcm tak de perasaan kat dia. dia marah2, terus tak de nk pujuk and all, terus tinggal dia mcm tu je and i declared myself single.

member2 surprise how i got the strength to leave him that easily. padahal time bercinte bukan main sumpah setia sehidup semati konon. then i realize, janji manusia mmg susah nk ditepati coz manusia dilahirkan mudah lupe.

now, my life dah kurang scandal, coz i hv been with PAKCIk for the past FIVE YEARS!!! having him around to check on me and all, mmg susah lah nk berscandal. but not to say tak de langsung.. ade gak..like little2 fling and all.. but i rather not say here lah.. kang kena soal ngan PAKCIK, ape nk jawab. i'd better stop until before i meet PAKCIK. hehehe..

nmpk je like i have met so many guys, but still, i dun really understand them. they are unique creatures, u know. i met many of them, hang araound with many types of them, but those are just flings. nothing more. most of the time, these things colours my life, and i learnt lessons from my mistakes and from others' victory. i guess that is how i want to live my life. and how i want to live my life, it is MY OWN BLOODY BUSINESS.

DANCE TILL MY FEET HURT

I had been very busy. Not only with the work at school (like marking books, preparing for exams, bla bla bla), my tuitions (I have like 5 tuition classes per week) and my personal life (like dating, go for manicure and jogging), but I also involve in a cultural show which IPBA will be representing Malaysia in a dance show. So, I have been going back and forth from Wangsa Maju to Bangsar to have the practise. Twice a week bacially that I have to drive all the way and sacrifice my leisure nights to dance till my feet hurt. Surprisingly, the sweat makes me healthier.

That is my point. Though I am busy, but it really makes me look happier and more active. I recall my life last year, when I first entered the teaching profession. No doubt this job is such a tiring job, and then I made it look even more tiring. I devoted my life too much to the school. My life was all about school. Guess what, for the whole last year, I didn’t even go to saloon, let alone to spa and clubbing. My life started as early as 6.00am, got home from school and I would be marking the students’ books, by 10.00 pm I would be on the bed already. My weekends, gosh it was so boring. I cannot recall me enjoying my life last year. No, not at all.

So, this year, I told PAKCIK, I’m 25 and the clock is ticking. I can’t go through my mid 20s with such a dull life. So, I decided to make a little change. Not big change pun actually. It’s just I wanna be myself again. Lively and outgoing.

So, here are some changes I make for myself. Maybe anyone who is reading might be inspired by this. Ahaks.
1) I go to school every day, then after school, I will stay back for a while to mark students’ work and plan for tomorrow’s classes so that I will not carry my stuff back home.

2) After school is the time where I will go to banks to settle bills or post office. I will also do grocery shopping at this time, coz less people and more parking spaces. Shorter queue too. Ahaks.

3) Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday at night I already have tuition classes. So, I free up my Thursday and Friday night. Thursday night I will go to surau for Islamic educational talk. This one I hardly miss coz PAKCIK will make such a great issue out of it if I don’t go.

4) Friday nights will be a night for me and PAKCIK. Normally I will hang out with him after his badminton practise, then we usually spend time at Hartamas Square or anywhere yang best.

5) I go for dance classes over the weekend at some dance academy around here. Not all weekends la.. because the classes normally for 3 hours. So, I need to find a solid 3 hours which I can get rest after that because the class is quite tiring.

6) If I don’t go for dance class, I will spend my money at the saloon. Stylish up my hair a bit and do manicure and pedicure. Sometimes, I will spend my hard-work money at a spa nearby. Just to get some massages and mandi2. syok. Really relaxing.

7) Most Saturdays I have school activities. So, I will hang out with PAKCIK after that. We’ll do few things like g for snow wash for my ENCHANTED or taking her for her service. Sometimes we go for jogging in the evening or a movie at night. If he has friends around, we will go for clubbing because he knows how much I love dancing. But basically, it is my dating time la.

8) Sundays are for me. Normally, I will start my day with a long jog early morning. It really loosens me up. Then I meet friends and hang out with them. Girls’ day out. If I wanna find anything this is the time, like nak cari dress for a dinner ke, nak beli foundation ke, anything lah. I will make sure that I got home before night because I need to iron my baju for work the next day.

9) In addition to this rigid time-table (as most people know, I’m the kind who plan things and stick with it. ahaks), I also make myself available for some other ‘co-curricular’ activities; eg, make over workshop (I got new knowledge and some new friends), Bobbi Brown High Tea, parties and weddings, F1 race at Sepang International Circuit, theatres and Car Accessories Clearance Auction.

Surprising or not, these activities make me active. I hardly get migraine and I hardly sick this year. Normally when I got flu, it wont recover until the next few months but this time I got flu, it only last for a week!!!

Right now, I am practising with PEWARIS IPBA, an organisation that I help to build during my college year, to perform the best during the show evening. We will be representing MALAYSIA in performing some cultural dances at the EDUCATIONAL MINISTRY OF THE COMMONWEALTH COUNTRIES ANNUAL CONVENTION. It sounds so BIG so we have to work our ass out. As for my part, I am so flattered that I am still in the team. It is a good scene to see how PEWARIS has grown big so beautifully. During my time in college, people hate PEWARIS, but now, not only that it’s a registered body in IPBA, it also accepted and being appreciated. God knows how much money I spend for fuel and toll each time I go there, but I didn’t feel a slight waste at all. Like PAKCIK said and I quote. “Kalau bab menari, tak reti penat. Sanggup je ulang alik jauh-jauh. Biar sampai lebam-lebam kaki pun sanggup jugak.”

It is partly true. No, almost 100% true. But I am happy because I become happier. I guess, mental, emotion and physical of you need to be balanced to lead a healthy life. AGREE??

TEACHER: MY JOB

My love towards a man is incredible. I may do every single thing in life just to be by his side. That is because I know he is worth it to risk my life for. I won’t do for nothing.

But my love towards my job is unbelievable. Not towards my job particularly, but more towards my kids, the one and only reason I wake up for in the morning, the only reason I dress up before I go to school and the only reason I gather my strength to go to th torturing place called ‘school’.

Last week, there was a small letter on my table. It was from Sufi Ifwat, one of the naughtiest but outstanding boy in 3 Bestari. He wrote,

“My beloved Miss Julia,
Why are you so sad lately? I hope to see your smile again.
You are the best teacher in the world.
From, Sufi Ifwat”

What an incredible kid. He just knew how to cheer me up. Just by reading that small piece of torn paper, it had put a little jiggling on my face. And that was not the only incident.

Today was teacher’s day. I just got back from PD for course, rushing to IPBA for a dance practise and I could feel the pain on my whole body. So, I wasn’t so look forward for the celebration. I did tell my students that they do not have to get me anything because what I really want is their ‘A’s in their examinations.

Apparently, I got so many flowers and presents. The table was just so full of things that I couldn’t even find my handbag. That was not it. The letters and cards, these had captured my heart.

Do you know how people say that kids are so pure and honest? If that was true, then I guess I must be too good for a teacher. I went home with these cards and letters. I found a place at the corner of the room and started reading. Without my realisation, tears started to role dowm my cheek. So pethatic, kan? But it’s true. These kids had touched my heart, they really did.

I wonder if there is such a thing called “Accountants Day” or “Engineers Day” or “Executives Day” and if there is, do people get presents for them as a token of saying thank you. But I am so bloody proud of being a teacher. Not only that people celebrate it to say thank you to us, but it is a noble job regardless how low-standard people see us and how small our payments are. Some parents called and sent sms to say thank you and wishing me a good life head. I’m so glad that in this millennium years, there are parents who still appreciate teachers even though they earn 10 times our salary.

PAKCIK wished me few times. I could tell that he is so proud of my job. He always reminded me of how noble my job is. He loves to hear my stories about the kids in school. Every day, he will ask me for any interesting stories at school. He is already on top, holding one of the good positions in his company, but he respects me as a person. He asks me to join his friends (who mostly drive big Merz and earn 5 figures permonth) but they always respect me. They call me by ‘cikgu’ and they always want to share my experience as a teacher. These people, they have gone through life more than us, so I guess that is why they know how important teachers are.

But sadly, none of my TKC buddies wish me Happy Teachers Day. Not that I hoped for it, but I guess that TKC girls are mostly too high class. I guess they have forgotten the role of teachers in TKC itself.

Of course they are bad teachers too. Not all teachers are born to become a teacher. But mostly, they work their ass out to educated today’s kids and prepare them for a more challenging life.

Whatever it is, I am so proud of being a teacher regardless what people say. I may earn smaller than others. But I make more money at my side incomes, I earn more experience. I work with the best bunch of people, my office is so cool, I would be at home at 2pm every day, I have time to socialize, I get respect from parents and kids, and last but not least, I get the title ‘cikgu’ for the rest of my life. I’m so happy with my job.

HAPPY TEACHERS’ DAY, TEACHERS.

S for Saturday, B for Budu

Friday at night, i sent PAKCIk to his badminton practise. The friends wooed him, biaselah tu, jealous of him to have somesome like me, ahaks. Then, i went home and cleaned up a mess that i made earlier this evening. at midnight, i picked up PAKCIK from his badminton court. Again, the friends teased me. the way they teased us, mcm lah we are newly married or baru bercinta. it's been 5 years i've known him, and these badminton buddies.

then, we grabbed supper at Sri Hartamas Square. it's been a long time. i love the food. too many choices but unfortunately i only have one stomach. so, we ordered the famous 'kerang'. teringat pulak kat our friend, YUNI. she loves that thing.

surrounding areas were hideous. young ladies and teenage boy were drinking alcohol and smoking cigar like nobody's business. first of all, mmg lah nobody's business, kan. it's their body that they want to destroy, so be it. but it's the scenery that i hated to see. obviously they are MALAYS, but their dressing, even BAYWATCH actresses had more pieces of cloth on their body. these malay teenagers, they drink TIGERS and JACK DANIELS like drinking orange juices. when they were high, they disturb other people.

Looking at them, i am so thankful. i am thankful that my teenage time had passed. i thank God that during that time, i had done nothing to destroy myself, what more to create such a disgusting scene towards other people's eyes. i went to parties, still go now. i wear skirts, i hang out at clubs and pubs, but i managed to stay myself away from cigar and alcohol. in fact, i wasn't and still not even tempted at all. i went to England and joined parties and all, but i managed to keep myself the way i was.

And my looking at them too, i became so scared of having a child. These kids, they have parents, but they still involve in these kind of thing. I bet their parents are not all rich and selfish. There must be good parents somewhere out there, but look at what their kids turn into. They might be a goody type at home, and become a devil when they are with their friends. Plus, i may not make a good parent. i don't know. maybe that an added excuse of not to get married yet.

Well, enough about that. The next day, i went off for a photoshoot @ E Vogue Models. it took amost 5 hours. huh, so penat. then, PAKCIK picked me up to go to a workshop. We need to take a look at ENCHANTED. she had been producing noise. it turned out, it was the break pads that were getting slim. So, i changed them for RM70. God, car is sure a high-mantainance property, huh. Well, at least i'm so satisfied because i'm doing this for my car with my name on it which i pay for on every 25th in each month with my own salary that i got for working my ass out to get a degree in TESL. So, it's my REAL car.

BTW, before that, he had to go to the office and have a little discussion with his staff. i told him i do not want to follow him to the office. So, he dropped me at Giant Batu Caves. With that makeup from the photoshoot on my face, i had drawn quite an attention. A guy came to me when i had my donut at Dunkin Donuts offering his company. God, what is he? Like 19? PAKCIK quickly got back to me after his discussion, he said "Dok kat sini lame2 buat ape. nnt ramai orang mengorat u. susah i." ahaks. sayang juak dia kat aku, even though i am just a simple low-class teacher je.

Then, we went to PERTAMA complex to repair his jeans. we also went for a drink in SOGO. this place really remind me of EQIN because since we are working, that's the place that we always go, despite there is a sale or not. Then, we went to KLCC and watched PAUL BLART: MALL COP. Bloody funny i swear i almost pee. it was boring at the beginning, but towards the end, it was so hilarious. I laughed even until we reached out place for dinner.

Dinner, at a place i always love to go. My favourite Ikan Snggang with Budu. Goh, i have never seen what a budu looked like until i met PAKCIK. He introduced me to it and now i just can't get it enough. But lucky we both love the same thing. and PAKCIK said, nasib baik it is BUDU. what if i like some kind of Lamb Steak or something. mati lah dia nk bagi aku mkn steak every day. hahaha.

Right after that, PAKCIK suggests that we both naik Genting to feel the air and get some romantic feeling. ahaks. good idea. almost too good to be true. But that is him, always make surprises. Tempting, but i said no. I was too tired. We went home and promised to meet the next day for dinner.

PHD IN CNN

Just when i was about to be lively again, i received a shocking news about a so-called ex-friend who happned to be a reat backstabber plus a two-faced joker and also a pathetic screamer. i don't want to mention who the person is, because eventually, people will know.

it's not like she (now i already mentioned the gender) is one of the most important person in my life. she has never been a 'friend'. i mean, can u call urself a friend if u go around selling your friends' secrets and stories??

she is chatty, too chatty. she is a great 'fire stone'. her main hobby is, get close with someone she think is 'high class' and up to her ZARA, TOPSHOP and GUESS standard. during this time, she will tell her stories so that the other person will tell theirs. her bloody sweet mouth will make other people think that she is sincere. then, when the secrets are all in her hand, this backstabber will find other friends and starts talking about the earlier person.

the thing is, she is such a great actor. like in front of other people, she will act like nothing happen. she will come to u and say "My god, that is a gorgeous dress you are wearing. you look hot in that dress, babe..." but once she turns around, she already make that puke face, and the next day, she tells everyone she meets, "She wears the ugliest dress that make her boobs look 10 times bigger!"

so, just recently, i heard a news that she had been selling off my stories. a source said, when i called to talk about sumthing secret, she switched on the loudspeaker and everyone else in the room could her my secret. so, i guess it was no longer a secret. how keji is that??

the thing about her is, if something bad happened to her, she will cry like bloody hell, acting like she's not on the wrong side. gosh, that is pathetic, kan?? she thinks she's high class so hang out with high class people. she doesn't go to pasar malam and all, coz her place is KLCC and Mid Valley je. she thinks she drives a nice car and with that she already so proud of herself. for god sake, proton saga?? my friend drives a proton saga and she's the nicest person in the whole.

she might hold some of my secrets, but she forgot that i have hers too. but i have never tell others about her, except that he is a backstabber, which is practically true enough. i juz wanna advice people out there, especially my friends, lease be careful with this bitch. she is just around you.

by the way, to this bitch, you better hold yourself together. you are getting engage, babe. jaga diri baik2. because, with all the things you have done, you think you will lead a good life?? let's just take good careof your engagement, ok. You know that Tuhan akan makbulkan doa orang yang teraniaya, right? and you never know what they pray for...BITCH.

PS: bukan nk doakan yg tak baik kat dia.. tak doa ape2 pun about her yet.. cume bagi warning. sbb ramai org dah teraniaya dgn perangai dia. so, berubahlah.. tp if dia berubah pun, kami semua takkan maafkan dia.. sbb belum tentu dia berubah betul2. maklumlah, two-faced joker, kan.

A MOODY WEEK

it's been months since the last time i had an off saturday. i took the opportunity of the long weekend to go home to my hometown to serve my responsibility as a daughter and sister.

before that, as and kj spent a night at my place. we went for a movie at KLCC and dinner @ DOME with Eqin and her hubby. it was a little fun i had after weeks of overloading workload.

on the way home to batu pahat, we were stucked in the terrible traffic along north-south highway from bangi to ayer keroh. lucky i had as with me, so the time went off quite quickly. i reached home and felt so tired. but again, the responsibility of a daughter made me went to my second cousin's wedding.

next day, we went to buy things for adik, brought her to clinic to treat her allegic. i bought kfc for my family to celebrate mum's birthday. i bought her ONE DROP perfume and kain baju kurung.

sunday, went back to KL, but with very minimum energy as though there was nothing to look forward to. well, frankly, it was nothing. hang out for dinner with PAKCIk and that's it. the next day, i went to school with moody face. a friend said "Julia, senyumlah sikit. senyum tu kan sedekah.." but i replied,"tak rasa mcm nk sedekah pun hari nih..."

it went on like that for few days. the only thing that kept me 'alive' was the kids, especially my 3 Bestari students. every day when i entered the class last week, they just knew how to cheer me up. IZZATI LIYANA spoke in English with me and talked about her family. AIMAN AFFAN made a little joke in the class about how he had lost his book. IFWAT asked me why i looked so sad. there was a lot more. this class, is just so special to me. added points, all of them got A and B for thier APRIL monthly test. none got a C or failed the ENglish test. i felt so proud.

i put henna on my fngers, thought that it might cheer me up a bit. but it gave no effect at all. Wednesday and Thursday, we were busy packing the flowers for Mother's Day. the smell of the roses and carnations gave a little energy to me, but very little.

Friday, PAKCIk reminded me about our holiday. then my eyes sparkled. yeay, we were going to have a holiday over the weekend. yeay....

please saturday, come quickly but pass slowly, ok.