S.C.A.N.D.A.L (18SX ONLY)

wut is life without any shocking news and challenging stuff, rite??

scandal visited my life since childhood. but of course it was just a small little2 kiddy thing. i was in all-girls school, so the only time meeting boys is kat sekolah agama. gosh, ramai giler budak2 lelaki yg aku minat. one of them, anak ustazah. zaki. very cute. tapi one year younger. ahaks. but of coz tak work out. he didnt even noticed me as a girl. he just noticed me as a competition in exams.

i also had a fling with my cousin, faizal. siap main bercinta2 lagi. wah, zaman tu, sume org tau how close we were. when his family moved out, i was so sad menangis siang malam. ahaks. in form one, i kenal this one guy, aidiyusman. name siap mcm bst gile. quite good looking lah jugak time tu. tak pernah jumpe pun..just tulis surat je. but in letters, jiwang karat habis. gile tak gile bercinte through letters.

when i was in form 4, minat this one guy, mohd shah mohd yasin, budak teknik PD. jumpe pun mase camping KPA (kadet pertahanan awam). very good looking guy. but, siapelah aku time tu. very nerd, tak lawa pun. so, no one ahs ever lay their eyes on me.

i met another aidi. this time, budak hiphop mane entah. but he was not ready to make commitment. kelakarnyer, there was one time he didnt return myc all at all. then, i went to his school and tried to find him. siap tipu cikgu sekolah dia kate i was a cousin from sabah. when he came down and saw me, terkejut beruk dia. hah, jgn main2 i can be very rough sometimes. dah lah mase tu hujn, budget citer hindustan lah konon. but mamat tu tercegat je akt situ, no response. of course lah, jantan...

then, i met a guy, sape ntah naem dia dah lupe..oh yes, ahmad ayzan.. org JB..sanggup dtg KL nk jumpe aku. tu arr first time pegang tangan ngan lelaki. ahaks. scandal tuu..tp mcm tak sesuai jer.. beza umur agak byk, dalam 8 tahun. pastu, rupenye dia dah tunang. hah, amek ko!! i was thinking mase tu, he was a guy yg tgh menyesal dgn pertunangan dia and tgh nk cari his last fling. biaselah tu, kan..

after SPM, couple ngan fazli, member childhood. ni kire skandal gak nih, co my mum tak suke. mcm mmg betol pun. now if i see him around, nmpk dia mcm perogol bersiri jerk.. huhuhu..then, couple lak ngan azmim. mak suke, psl dia anak member mak. we all pun mcm sweet gielr jek. baloik from kl to batu pahat same2. kire mcm sweet habis ler. my friends kat UTM pun suker jerk tgk kitorg. but then,when i entered ipba, he broke up with me. mcm bangang pun ade gak.

kat IPBA lah my life started full of scandals. from the very first week. that bloody stupid sex-maniac redza asyraf.. gosh, i still remember his name. seriously, if tgk muke dia now, mcm perogol seyh. sorrylah for those yg kena dia.. mintak maaf byk2.. hah, ade scandal ngan lecturer gak..uish, ni kalau org tau, habis nih.. lecturer tu kire boleh dikatakan nak amik kesempatan lah gak.. but tak kesempatan..ahaks

tak habis lagi ngan tu.. scandal dgn abg kdpm laks. sape ntah name dia.. the one yg ade motor besar tu, yg selalu berlagak tu.. argh, i pun cant remember his name. ahaks.then with pojie. it was just a fling la, but i guess i hv hurt many hearts mase tu.. then lastly, dgn paad. nih cume member biase je, but sbb rapat sgt, org pun gossip ler kitorg.. but he was a good friend la, such a shame to lose him as a best friend. up till now pun sumtimes i miss him as a fren. tp sume dah bw diri masing2, kan...

at the same time, i had a bf..shah. hah, scandal tak scandal.. ade bf but ade scandal.. pernah gak kuar ngan member budak UTM, raja and hendra. sume tu ade scandal gak tu.. uish, besor citer.. kire mcm kite tgh ade problem ngan bf kite, pastu dtg lah member nk tolong, then tgk2 kite pulak fall kat member tu... hah, mcm tu lah citernyerrr...

tp dlm byk2 nih, dgn shah lah yg agak medalam skit. takt au lah nape.. maybe sbb ngan dia lame skit kot.. lame tak lame sgt lah, 9 bulan kot.. setahun pun tak sampai.. tp sb dia dah bw jumpe mak dia, tido rumah mak dia lagi, kan..so, kire mcm sayang ha bis lah kan mase tu.. ramai je scandal mase tu, tp sudahnyer, aku tolak sume coz sayang sgt kat dia..

but the 'sayang' eventually faded away one time.. dalam dah berjanji mcm2 tu, the love still gone within the thin air. tibe2 je i mcm tak de perasaan kat dia. dia marah2, terus tak de nk pujuk and all, terus tinggal dia mcm tu je and i declared myself single.

member2 surprise how i got the strength to leave him that easily. padahal time bercinte bukan main sumpah setia sehidup semati konon. then i realize, janji manusia mmg susah nk ditepati coz manusia dilahirkan mudah lupe.

now, my life dah kurang scandal, coz i hv been with PAKCIk for the past FIVE YEARS!!! having him around to check on me and all, mmg susah lah nk berscandal. but not to say tak de langsung.. ade gak..like little2 fling and all.. but i rather not say here lah.. kang kena soal ngan PAKCIK, ape nk jawab. i'd better stop until before i meet PAKCIK. hehehe..

nmpk je like i have met so many guys, but still, i dun really understand them. they are unique creatures, u know. i met many of them, hang araound with many types of them, but those are just flings. nothing more. most of the time, these things colours my life, and i learnt lessons from my mistakes and from others' victory. i guess that is how i want to live my life. and how i want to live my life, it is MY OWN BLOODY BUSINESS.